Saturday, January 28, 2012

A question

Okay, I've spent a lot of time thinking, and I've come to a decision.

That night I knocked myself out I had a bad hallucination. If my posts are to be believed, I imagined what you people call "The Choir."A grey shadow-thing always on the edge of my field of vision. I probably also kept hearing the whispering, but I don't know if they changed their message that night or not...

Anyway, that hallucination scared me. Badly. I still don't know why I knocked myself out or what I was trying to write on those papers, but everything points to one VERY bad trip. Since then, I've been on this regiment of sleeping medication, which frankly isn't the best for my body. But I don't want to have to deal with the hallucinations...

So I want to ask you all a question. You seem wary of these pills the docs gave me. I'm kind of wary myself, since Chelsea and I have never heard of psychiatrists just handing these things out. there wasn't a prescription, they just said "take one of these a night, and you'll be fine." The label says Haloperidol, which Wikipedia says is a fairly generic anti-psychotic. Anyway, I'm going to face my fears and open the bottle, if just to check the pills in the bottle against images pulled from Google. My question is that if the pills seem real, should I try taking one to see its effects?

3 comments:

  1. You should do a visual comparison. I recommend seeing another doctor, another opinion, about the pills though. I personally just want you to stop the pills altogether, but I can't force you to.

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  2. I agree about seeing another doctor or a pharmacologist, especially if they look similar to what you see on Google, just to make sure.

    And if nothing looks out of the ordinary, I guess I would take one with Chelsea around to make sure you don't die or something.

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  3. .....bad advice. I'd go to a different set of doctors altogether.

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